MOTIVATION-LESS, VACATION-LESS, EXISTENTIALIST CRISIS
I have TONS of work to do. Plenty of work to keep me busy for a few days at least, and I somehow can’t bring myself to do it. When I open excel, I just sit there staring at the spreadsheet like I can’t believe this is something I have to do. I’m feeling totally unmotivated this week, and it’s led me to be super reflective about my work/life all week. Since I work in a family biz, there are tons of things I have to do that are super unpleasant (for me), but they need to be done. Wait a minute….That’s probably the bane of everyone’s existence. Excuse me for being such a whiny bitch, but nonetheless, I’m feeling really torn because I’m having the biggest urge to take the GMAT, apply to grad school, get in somewhere in NYC or Chicago (preferrably Chicago), get the HELL out of LA, and pursue my master’s in journalism or like, creative writing? I don’t know. Then, on the flip, I love working with my family, I’m having a lot of fun, and because of all the drama there’s never a dull moment, so the other part of me just wants to sit tight and make my business super, super successful so I can be at least Real Housewives of New Jersey-wealthy. I don’t know what road I will take. Now that I think about it, I’m not going anywhere; I’ll suck it up and figure it out, but Reality BITES for real today.
