Occasionally, I forget that just because someone shows a semblance of interest in me-they don’t belong to me; they’re not my property-unfortunately (for them). And I can’t act territorial or jeally or possessive, because I don’t have a deed of ownership over them.
Still, it can be kind of disconcerting when someone who shows interest in you also shows interest in someone else, like right in front of you. It’s like, ‘please don’t show me interest last week and then show someone else interest (even though they are pretty cute) the following week in front of me’-don’t do me dirty like that.
There have been times when that’s happened, and usually-I just opt myself out of the situation. I don’t know if that’s the best or worst thing to do. But if someone isn’t about me 100, then I’d rather not be into them even -10. I don’t like the idea of engaging in competitions for someone’s attention, because I’ve seen people do that-and it just always seems super desperate-even if they “win.”
And what are you winning really? Perhaps you’re winning someone who will give you some temporary attention, and then redirect that attention just as soon as they can-post hooking up or something.
But I’m human. I get jeally. I try not to show it. But I don’t think people are ready for this jeally. Because even when I try to act cool and above it, on the inside-I’m pushing my competition into a punch bowl and telling them to cool off since they’re back is so hairy and probably retains a lot of heat.
Ultimately, that just means that the person who showed me interest is not my property, and I ain’t trying to sublet at this point in my life. On to the next.